I have a
confession to make.
Not many people know that I am a serious astrologer,
not just an amateur, but rather a
serious one who virtually breaths and lives with the stars. Basically I am living in the star track, not the movie,
but the real star track of the heavenly bodies, like the Sun, Moon…Neptune, etc. They are
always roaming around in my head as well as in my soul.
In my head there are always the planets going around; I constantly keep
track of their location, movements and changing energy patterns...
In Sanskrit term, the stars or planets are called “graha”, which means
to “to grasp, to take hold of”. I got
hold of by them ever since 1992 and they
never left my awareness thereafter.
I always wonder whether knowing astrology was a curse or blessing in my life.
Many a time it felt more
like a curse. Because, in life, you are
better off by not knowing too much. I
don’t have all the answers in life, but, I feel pressured to know all the
solutions to the endless problems, challenges our life present. Even if I know
it, it’s also not straightforward mathematical kinds of answer, like A becomes
B, becomes C and D... it is rather fuzzy…
You see, life is the sum
total of accrued causes and effects, governed by karmic rules. You can never
know from where it started and how and when it ends. But it sure will come to pass in whatever way
is written in the blueprints. However, most
of what I see…I generally keep it to myself.
Or else it can easily cause unnecessary anguish to the listeners. So it becomes torment to know, or not to know…
a curse that I live with…
But then, if I didn’t know
astrology, I don’t think I could ever found ways of how to keep cool, stay
collected and centered in the diverse facets of up and down life’s affairs. I don’t think I could understand people and
life as much as I do right now. I don’t
think I could live with this kind of positive, surrendering modes to the Force
that is much larger than all the stars, all the people, events, emotions, things
throughout the entire universe… So certainly it is more of blessing to know astrology,
I think…
Lately another major life
challenge struck me…but, I am able to see it just as it is….rather than getting
lost in it…I am waiting for the answers to arise…I know the planets, the Forces
will guide me to it…
Will you, too, give me supports,
your collective kind intentions? So that
I can sail through it safely???
